When you’re a creative small business owner, being sick in bed for six days straight is pretty much NEVER on your agenda.
Last week was supposed to be a busy transition from my mission trip to Nicaragua to getting prepared to starting the next school year as a teacher. I had a couple of personal photography projects planned. I was going to get ahead and write a few extra blog posts for when things get busy. (Trust me….they will….fast!) I was also going to get caught up some loose details for my photography business. In addition, I planned to do a thorough cleaning of my house so that it would be at least decent for the first few weeks of school.
Instead, all of those well-intended plans came to a screeching halt when I came down with a horrible flu virus. I’m talking about a lay-on-the-couch-sleeping-all-day kind of sickness. The days just kind of ran together. The fever, headache, and a lot of other horrible symptoms made sure that I got NOTHING done. Zero. Nada.
Yes, I ended up going to the doctor. But, of course, since it’s a virus, there’s nothing they can really do. And my school year starts tomorrow.
I can cry and mourn the horrible death of my to-do list. On the other hand, I can try to figure out what God is trying to teach me through all of this. He certainly wasn’t surprised by my sudden illness! Perhaps God wants me to depend on Him MORE and myself LESS. He will show me what’s important. And it is God who will give me the wisdom and strength to accomplish the good works He has planned for me.
So I will not cry over my loss of productivity. Instead, I choose to recognize the blessings of God’s provisions in spite of my sickness. I have family members that stepped up (mostly my husband) and taken care of some things around the house for me. I also had the blessing of good healthcare and a comfortable place to rest during my sickness. In addition, I have the benefit of actually feeling better! I still need to do some things for both my business and around the house, but I’m going to have to let go and trust that God will provide the time I need to get these things completed.
Expect to see more about my mission trip to Nicaragua soon, but one huge takeaway from this trip was that most Nicaraguans have a peace with time. They go through the day and let it happen. They don’t stress through things and fight with the clock like I so often do. I want to be more like that–> content with the time I have and the tasks that need to fill it. On the flip side, Nicaraguans don’t have to cram every second full. They don’t have to be constantly stimulated. Such a great reminder!
The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps. Proverbs 16:9 (ESV)
This unexpected week of sickness taught me that my plans are not really that important, afterall. God knows best, and He is able to give me exactly what I need. It’s up to me to trust Him for it.